SHOW THEIR COLOUR INSIDE THE MOUTH
For a long time I was wishing to
write. May be it is natural that when you imbibe too much you have to
purge…..then we don’t just imbibe…..we process what we imbibe then there are
wastes which we have to purge out…..in cases where wastes are not made still when there are products …good
things which we make and cannot store we have to get it out……maybe that’s how
we write….most of us write….I used to write poetry once upon a time…..it used
to come and I wrote for myself….some were good enough to be given for college
magazines but I never thought of checking if it was good for anything else. It
somehow did not matter…..my ego was satisfied by just seeing my college mates
reading them…..may be if I wrote more and my ego had grown I might have sent it
to some publisher…..but then one fine day the poetry was no longer there. I did
not run after it too.It did not come on my beckoning so no use running after
it.
But I have been thinking what had
triggered this writing after so long .May be it was the smell of paint…my
consulting room was painted yesterday. As I entered the room I was greeted by a
strong smell of paint and distemper…..the stimulation took me back….when we
were hopping from one rented house to another….the owners would white wash and
paint just before we shifted …the smell would be there….we would take time
settling down…going to nearby shops
buying what we needed……finding corners in the new houses to keep our
belongings….a corner to keep the photographs of our GODS….a corner to keep our
trunk boxes……books to be arranged in racks……all these were there somewhere in
my brain …these were the times when I used to write …letters, diaries
etc….which would be a vent to my creative purging of thoughts…..and then it
took just a whiff of smell of paint to bring it all out of some corner in the
brain…I can see small electric impulses travelling through the olfactory nerves
and stimulating some areas of my brain ….what a wonderful mechanism…..designed
to give us joy as much as the pain it can give.
Often I have wondered about this mechanism……the thoughts rising inside us….love, hate, insecurity, the will to live, …the wish to die……all originating in the same brain…….it is surprising how some chemicals….neuro transmitters are capable of creating good .bad and neutral kind of thoughts….with some signals…..the thoughts of a diseased ,prejudiced person are so different from one who is positive in all types of situations….if only we knew what reactions were happening in the positive kind of guy and could simulate the same reactions with some drugs in a person…..there would be no one unhappy in this world…..happiness all around….so much happiness that we would be soon searching for ways to be un happy.
I
have often found myself at strange crossroads where I have wondered if I should
be happy or sad….I had wanted to be angry but couldn’t…..may be that confusion
was my most important personality trait….helping me in situations where
patience was required…. For the situation to pass off……but time again this was taken
as a weakness on my part…. And I have tried to feign anger, determination, kindness ….as it was
supposed to be so….
Talking
about thoughts and its effects on body ..we see people speaking about how
hurting words have an effect on them when they are at the receiving end of the
words but forgetting all when they are generating the same words. If all words
and thoughts are but chemicals reacting in a particular fashion then the
thought as well as the words will harm the generator much more than the people
who are at the receiving end. The doubts, ill feeling, hatred,scheming all will
have chemicals to produce ill effects on the body in which it is produced…the
building blocks of good as well as bad thoughts are the same chemicals…but it
depends upon us how we design and combine these to create thoughts and
words….once created the end product is a harmful chemical which is not expelled
from the body…..it affects different parts and results in diseases…and many a
doctor in this world will agree many diseases are caused by no reason. Often we
see people complaining what have we done
to deserve it….but in reality everybody has got only what they deserved….some
are lucky to have ill ness in old age…..it just means the negativities in them
were so less that it had accumulated for years to reach the threshold to cause
illnesses..
Others
had accumulated so fast that they have to suffer in their youth. The concept is
not new. An old ayurvedic text “ashtanga hridaya” which deals with diseases, prevention and treatments starts the treatise
with a shloka which is roughly is translated as “Obeisance be to that
extraordinary/rare physician who has destroyed without any residue ,the
diseases like raga (the term raga means “kama”(lust),krodha(anger),lobha(greed),mada(arrogance),matsarya(envy),
dwesa(hatred),bhaya(fear)and such negative emotions) which are constantly
associated with and spread all over the body, giving rise to outsukya(anxiety),moha(delusion) and arati(restlessness)
All physicians deal with diseases of the
body but obeisance is made to extraordinary physician(GOD) who helps in curbing
such ill feeling. It is important to
note the verse says raga is “constantly associated with and spread all over the
body giving rise” to known diseases of the body and mind. More and more the
world is awakening to this fact…..exercises are being formulated to purge the
negativities…..through music,breath, meditations etc….people are flocking with
sacks of money to godmen to tell them positive things which they already know….tell
them ways to get rid of their guilt feelings which arise as they do things they
know is wrong yet do it but feel relieved when somebody they revere say “go and
give bread to a poor fellow…or…put so much money in the church,temple
etc….build so and so things for god etc..they do it and feel happy….the negative
feelings are replaced with positive feelings which give them a sense of well
being….they start getting a reprieve from their existing illness which adds to
the Godliness of their spiritual teacher..more people turn followers…
Positive feelings are also generated by music and dance and reading….we are seeing music and dance becoming therapies instead fo modes of entertainment. Calm and quiet places are selected for convalescence. Alternative therapies like aura,pranic and reiki are gaining importance…..all are just making the mind quiet….all concentrating on expulsion of negative energies and initiating healing….the negative feeling chemicals getting neutralized by positive feeling chemicals produced inside our body.
